Can I 5-0 A TOP 10 PLAYER?! (Minecraft Bridge Duels)

SHOUTOUT TO SKIZZY: youtube.com/channel/UCNaKVZZqth3ZEH6V_zMpX5g
I literally have no motivation do even make a proper thumbnail right. Honestly have no idea what is going on. When editing a vid, it used to be so fun soo. NOW IT FEELS LIKE WORK. Every little edit and cut feels like i have to force myself to do it. This vid was recorded over a month ago. I havent played bridge properly in over a month and i get destroyed by nons. I feel like "keep pushing, you can get more subs" but its like so tiring. maybe I should do something else. Also I met this small YouTuber called Jonah Ryan, I bet charity $100, next month this time, he will be bigger than me currently (55.2k) , which is insanely mindblowing and humbling (16.7.2021) I feel really clue I have no idea what i'm doing. I have 55k subs but the experience of a baby. I WILL work on myself.