Mimic // Miasma Bliss (Original Song)

Lyrics:

Y’all ever played Pokemon?
You know that dude Mimikyu?
Dresses up like a Pikachu
just to make it through?
Pretty sad backstory if you ever read between the lines
Surprised that little guy even made it out alive

But on that subject, got me thinkin’
‘Bout the people that surround me
Seems to me that recently
Everything I do somehow gets copied
Desaturated to a lesser degree
I don’t consider myself that interesting
So why y’all keep copying me?

I try to keep it so delicate
Trying hard but I ain’t getting it
Where’s this all getting me?
Feel hectic yet stationary

Yeah, I’m a conundrum
Intentions never been crisp
Sorry if you’re getting pissed
That I needed a paradigm shift

Stay in your own lane
Stop at the stop signs
When I say it’s too much
Don’t push for more on that grey line

Look, I know y’all think I’m confident
Got it all covered, no soul-bartering
From the outside looking in
I must look pretty on top of it
I’ll give you that much
Guess I do good job, huh?

I get up and do my duty
I’m smooth when I’m doing it
Second I leave that metaphorical stage
My head starts banging, exploding
Heart starts pounding
Need some grounding
Feeling down but
Called astounding
Everyone says that I did so great
But all I hear is static

I gotta take a breather for a second
I got emotions meddling
I gotta protect my body
Better go tie another tourniquet

God I’m a mess
But I keep it together each and every day
I’m doing great
But hey, ain’t that what we all say?

I laid out the blueprint
Found all the flaws in the foundation
No wonder I caved in when I lacked a proper basis

Now I’m formidable
Apologies if I’m not as typical
As y’all are craving
I’m me
If that doesn’t add up to what you want to see
I’m not sure if I can help me be what I don’t wanna be

From the time I was 10 years old
I started to break the mold (Yeah)
I put on cruise control
Drifted down my own road

Now I’m feeling great!
Feeling comfortable in my own skin!
And even if I can’t be completely honest
And if it’s not a 100% win win!

I’ve been making my moves, yeah
I’ve been tryna’ move through
I’ve dropped the facade of trying to prove
What never required proof

So I’ll aim at my target and shoot
Drop the medals, let ‘em loose
I’m not afraid to lose
To bust the walls of this ruse of those who disapprove

My mental state hasn’t been helpful
My honesty hasn’t been thorough
Kept my burdens locked in a keepsake box
And threw it in a faraway burrow

Usually I keep a smile lit
Usually I keep myself distracted
But every time I lay my head down at night
My demons turn back and rear their ugly head, like

I’d be lying if I said it didn’t take a whole lot of trying
Heaps of effort on my part to just keep the lies up
Had nights where I slept like a baby
And still felt tired
Probably got an overdue appointment
With the pied piper

So y’all still want to copy my homework?
Think what I’ve done works?
When you’re throwing rocks at my windows
Like a bunch of phonies
When you sit around and lurk

Think my cogs are spinning like clockwork
I’m Frankenstein level patchworked
Need a bit reworked
So don’t linger in my shadow
Like you have any clue how that works

Crickets, it’s always crickets
When I do what they said I couldn’t
Oh, want me to relinquish it?
If you want your own achievements, go and get them

So sick of this carousel going around
Wagering I can make all of them proud
Hear the laughter resounds
I fall
Then I pick myself off of the ground
I turn up the sound
I get so damn loud
This is my life force pound for pound
Y’all forgetting I never did this for some fictitious crown

I jostle my lungs and I straighten my wrist
Start writing my list
With a venomous kiss
With a monstruos hiss
And a visceral whip
I’m pouring my soul into every single bar that you hear

I burn this
If I get where my dreams wanna be so badly
It won’t be because I deserve it
It’ll be because I earned it

Hardworking
Never slow my pace
Slow-learning
Face to face
But I’m willing to erase a canvas
Start over blank
Just to create and mold myself like clay

Got quite a few listening
Won’t lie, I’m feeling anxiety from toe to head
Closed the book on Spectrum
Just to start writing Chapter One of Pantheon again